I'm not afraid, but this is real
It all comes at once
From every single direction
This time I'm not sleeping at all
How could this be real
I've failed you
I was lying when I said
I was looking north
I was too scared to show what I am
Bear with me this is all I have left
This might be more than a simple conversation
It's been dancing around in my head
For quite some time
Just the thought
Of cleaning up myself
I stare at the wall
Watching my time float away
It's all been a blur
And nothing will change
I was lying
This is defeat