Maybe I should drink some cyanide
Mungkin aku harus minum sianida
Anything to make me disappear
Apa saja agar aku bisa menghilang
Call a man to make feel alive
Telepon seseorang agar aku merasa hidup
Cuz I don't really care bout nothing at all
Karena aku sudah nggak peduli sama sekali

Just wanna be thin
Cuma mau kurus
So I can take it all off
Supaya bisa lepas semuanya
Wanna make some new friends
Ingin punya teman baru

If you wanna see my blueprint
Kalau kamu mau lihat gambaran diriku
It's not under my blue jeans
Nggak ada di balik celana jeansku
But we could sit all night to some Jay-Z
Tapi kita bisa duduk semalaman sambil dengerin Jay-Z

We could of been amazing
Kita seharusnya bisa luar biasa
California daydream
Mimpi indah di California
Surely we ain't in love at 18
Pastinya kita nggak jatuh cinta di usia 18
You were mine for the summer
Kamu milikku di musim panas
You're mine till it rained
Kamu milikku sampai hujan turun
Listening to Jay
Dengerin Jay
Tryna feel something
Berusaha merasakan sesuatu

Maybe I should switch to cherry wine
Mungkin aku harus beralih ke anggur ceri
Might make me act less like a bitch
Mungkin bisa bikin aku nggak sejahat itu
I know I said that I would never lie
Aku tahu aku bilang nggak akan pernah berbohong
But I don't really care bout you anymore
Tapi aku udah nggak peduli sama kamu lagi

Just wanna be thin
Cuma mau kurus
I know that won't be enough
Aku tahu itu nggak akan cukup
I just wanna to make you understand...
Aku cuma mau kamu mengerti...

If you wanna see my blueprint
Kalau kamu mau lihat gambaran diriku
It's not under my blue jeans
Nggak ada di balik celana jeansku
But we could sit all night to some Jay-Z
Tapi kita bisa duduk semalaman sambil dengerin Jay-Z

We could of been amazing
Kita seharusnya bisa luar biasa
California daydream
Mimpi indah di California
Surely we ain't in love at 18
Pastinya kita nggak jatuh cinta di usia 18
You were mine for the summer
Kamu milikku di musim panas
You're mine till it rained
Kamu milikku sampai hujan turun
Listening to Jay
Dengerin Jay
Just tryna feel
Cuma berusaha merasakan
Tryna feel something
Berusaha merasakan sesuatu

And that's all I'll ever do
Dan itu saja yang akan kulakukan
Listening to Jay
Dengerin Jay
Tryna feel something
Berusaha merasakan sesuatu